I was once told, “If ever you feel neglected, just say
‘Ninety-Nine’”.
I was puzzled for a while but it was explained afterwards.
Remember the parable of the lost sheep?
There was a sheep that got lost, and because the Shepherd
loves him so much, He left the other 99 just to look for him.
The question is: Why did He leave the ninety-nine for the
sake of ONE?
Then it was explained further, the Shepherd left the
ninety-nine simply because He trusted them. He knows those ninety-nine are
strong enough to protect themselves no matter what happens. He believes that
they won’t get lost even without Him by their side. Unlike that one who got
lost, they know how to get back where their Shepherd left them. That’s the
ninety-nine, strong and trustworthy.. at least at the sight of their Shepherd.
And now I ask myself, am I ‘ninety-nine’?
Well, whether it’s true or not, that’s what they expect of me
– strong and trustworthy.
But then, whenever I feel that I can’t be ‘ninety-nine’
anymore, I just have to say that magic word. And as I say it, I’m not saying
that I am strong who can be left alone. I’m not saying that I can get back
whenever I get lost. As I say that magic word, I’m shouting that I’m alone and
helpless. I’m crying for help and mercy. I’m in need of a rescuer.
And now, I’m feeling so helpless. I’m feeling so alone and
empty. I’m feeling so exhausted.
Lord, I once refused to say this.. but now I can’t help it..
"I’m NINETY-NINE.."
