CAPTURED.. Yes I am.
DG

I knew the door I’ve opened. I knew fully how everything would go. But what I was not really aware about was.. I didn’t know when to get out again. I did not even know where the door was..

I just entered and didn’t even bother to look back, because in the very first place, I didn’t have any plan to get out again.

BUT, many pushed me to go back. Many tempted me to run away..

BUT..


When I’m about to give up, You rescue me..

When I’m about to let go, You grab me back..

And when I’m about to fall, you capture me once more..




You CAPTURE my heart.. 

over and over and over again..



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Siguro Nga
DG

“It’s complicated.”

Uso yan ngayon. Trending ba. Sabi nga sa quote na nabasa ko, “Uso ngayon ang larong sweet sweet-an, ang unang ma-fall, TALO.” Kaya nga merong M.U. – Magulong Usapan, MisUndersntanding, Mutual Understanding (daw).. at kung ano pa ang depinisyon mo ng M.U.

But well, hindi naman yan ang topic ko. Zero ang love life ko at hindi ko rin tipo ang ganyang laro. SIGURO, masyado lang akong attached sa phrase na “It’s complicated”.

“It’s complicated.” Yan ang status. Oh, don’t get me wrong. Hindi yan ang relationship status ko ngayon at hindi magiging ganyan kahit na kailan. So ano ang complicated? Uhm, palitan natin. SINO ang complicated?


SIYA. Sinong siya? Basta siya.


SIGURO NGA.

Siguro nga, komplikado siya mag-isip. Siguro nga, mahirap siyang intindihin. Siguro nga, masyadong weirdo. Sabi nga ng mentor niya one time, “Welcome to the club of weirdos my friend!” Haha!

Well, naniniwala naman akong may kanya-kanya tayong ka-weirduhan. Siguro nga, iba iba lang ng level. Kaya nga minsan, yung maintindihan ka lang ng iba sobrang natutuwa ka na. Minsan gusto mo pang mag-celebrate. Kaya minsan, mas lalo ka tuloy nagmumukang ewan. Pero okay naman maging weird eh. Kahit minsan lang, nafi-feel mong iba ka, unique ka, wala kang katulad. Pero sabi nga nila, everything has a price.

Minsan, ikaw ang nasasaktan sa sarili mong ka-weirduhan at madalas ikaw ang naiinis sa sariling mong pag-iisip. Minsan pwede naman kasing simple lang, ginagawa mo pang komplikado. Minsan pwedeng dedmahin mo nalang, pero dahil may konting sapak ka, pinapansin mo pa. Kaya madalas, nasasaktan ka. Ang mas masakit pa nga, ikaw mismo hindi mo naiintindihan ang sarili mo. Nakakabaliw kaya. Pero ganun talaga eh. So kung masaktan at mainis ka, well, tanggapin mo na lang.. ginusto mo yan eh, di ba? Kahit minsan masakit, well, you have no choice, just endure the pain and enjoy the tears. Hehe.

Pero sabi nga niya, may masakit pa dyan. Yung pakiramdam na akala mo nauunawaan ka, pero sa totoo lang, hindi pala. Ayos lang naman kahit hindi ka maintindihan eh. Alam mo naman sa sarili mo na medyo baliw ka at may konting saltik ang mga ideya mo. Pero sana pala, walang magpapanggap na naiintindihan ka kung hindi naman pala. Lagi namang may taong makakaunawa eh. Kahit isa lang, ayos na yun. At least may isa. Hindi mo na kailangan ng pangalawa kung joke lang naman pala. Minsan tuloy akala mo suportado ka, pero sa dulo, maiiwan ka lang mag-isa. Masakit kaya yun. 'di ba?


Pero pag dumadating ang ganyang panahon sa kanya, panahon ng tag-ulan, ayos lang. At least, napapatunayan niyang tao pa rin siya.. nasasaktan. At syempre, natututo naman, kaya ayos lang :)

Kaya pag sinumpong siya ng ka-weirduhan niya, enjoy na lang! Minsan minsan lang naman yun eh. Pero pag nasaktan siya, tinatanggap din niya. Choice niya yun eh.


Siguro nga, weird siya. Siguro nga, komplikado minsan. Siguro nga, mahirap intindihin minsan. Kahit ako nahihirapan eh. Hehe. Pero masaya akong unawain siya. Masaya akong may ibang linggwahe kaming nalalaman. Pero sa mga panahong hindi ko kayang intindihin, well, sasabayan ko nalang siyang maligo sa ulan. Yun na lang mao-offer ko eh :D


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Rule #1
DG

No man is an island. We all know that.
We were all created to socialize. To mingle with others. To chat. To talk. To have fun. It is the human nature. We cannot control it. It is innate and we’ve got no choice. But still there’s one thing we can control and choose – the people who will surround us.

My mentor once said, “It will always be your prerogative to choose to whom you will talk, with whom you will be and to whom you will share a part of you..”
It has always been my rule. But that day, it was sealed.

I choose my crowd. That’s my prerogative. I choose with whom I will chat. I choose to whom I will open up my heart and I choose from whom I will hide it.
I choose my friends and I choose to treasure them.


But then, another day my mentor told me again, “No matter how special you may become to your friends, still, do not overestimate your importance. Still, do not expect.” I slowly nodded and smiled and deep down I whispered, “Indeed, expectation kills.”

That thought made my eyes wide open that night. I can’t help but ponder upon it. It was just an unwritten code. It was said out of the blue. And maybe I can say, out of a joke.

“Do not overestimate your importance to someone.”

Yeah, right. That should be RULE # 1. In any relationship, you can’t avoid pain. But in order to avoid greater pain, you have to abide with this rule.

You may be important because you’re a friend. But that doesn’t mean that you are the most valued one. Always think, YOU ARE NOT.

Sometimes, you will think that your friend will be there by your side with just one call. But what if he/she doesn’t?

Sometimes you will think your friend will understand your feelings. But what if he/she doesn’t?

Sometimes you will walk away and expect him/her to follow. But what if he/she doesn’t?

That’s why there’s Rule #1. And if you adopt it, don’t dare to forget it.


You are a friend.. but always remember that YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY FRIEND.

So BACK OFF a little bit my friend.. lest you will just get badly hurt.

RULE # 1: Do not overestimate your importance to someone.

Clear?

Clear.


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Dear Friend,
DG

It's 21st again. And though you've said it for nineteen times only, I must say you are welcome for twenty one times. Why? So that I've welcomed you more than you've thanked me. Hehe.

I thank you for everything. I thank you for being someone who tries to understand even if I myself can't understand. I thank you for making me feel that I am your friend, and not just you are my friend :D
Oh yeah right, your FriendZone is really crowded my friend, but never forget that at one corner, you've got me there! :)

Love,
Your Fre
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Dear Friend,
DG


It's been a while. I'm wondering how are you doing right now. I'm missing the old times, those funny moments and silly jokes we shared together. How I really wish to bring back all those times. But I know it can never happen again and and all I can do is to ponder on those memories we had. Life's too short to be wasted going back to the past. Though I missed you, I know we both have different lives now. You've gone to your chosen path and I'm perfectly happy with the path I've taken. Though it's full of struggles and pains, the joy I have surpasses them all. I just really hope you're happy as I am.

Love,
Your Old Friend
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The Battle Continues
DG


There was a voice shouting: “Turn back! You can’t do it anymore!”
I looked around and see no one. I listened again.. and it echoes to my soul..

                     “Turn back…”

                     “You can’t do it anymore..”


And it continues…

I covered my ears. I closed my eyes. I quiet my heart.
Had I heard it before, I should have shouted back. But it’s different now. I know shouting back won’t help. I just have to silent my heart and listen to a smaller voice.

“Get up my child. You can do it.. 

I know you can..”


No one ever said that my life will be easy. No one ever said that everything will go on smoothly. In fact, many have warned me. Many have said this path will be full of pains. But I also know that taking this path will bring eternal joy to my soul. I know for a fact that this is where I really should be.



Who said I’m quitting?

Of course not!

I’m just preparing for the next battle. I know this one’s harder and bigger.



And now, I AM READY.



Bring it on Lord!



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My BOSS Said So :)
DG

It’s another day and there’s another war to win. I looked at my shaking hands. Can I really do it? 

Sometimes it’s not really what you will do, but for whom you will do it; not really how big the task is, but how important it is.

Good thing there are people who back me up – people who always believe in me, trust me and having confidence in me. And I know that’s because of God, my big Boss, who’s always behind me.

So, what now?

My boss down here and my Boss up there said I can always do it.


What to fear?

Just get up and PREACH IT!

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